Growing Up

-
I've been thinking about a lot of things lately. How as we get older our dreams change, we have to reprioritize what we actually want in life.

I went to an event at the medical school I want to attend. The event was a discussion on "The Good, the Bad, and the Ugly" in medicine. It really got me thinking about all the challenges that will come with pursuing a career in medicine, and how I might have to set some of my dreams aside. It has me asking questions like:

How can I go to medical school and travel the world? It's not possible, I won't have the time or the money.

How can I have time to meet someone and get married when I'm so busy training to be a doctor, and then being a doctor?

How can I get married and have kids, while being a doctor? Will I have time to make and spend time with my family?

How can I accomplish my goal of homeschooling my kids when I'll be working so much? Will my husband want to do that?

Will I ever get married? Am I supposed to get married?

Should I continue to pursue this hard path to becoming a doctor? Is it worth it? Is this what I'm supposed to be doing?

What would happen if I just stopped? If I graduated from OSU and was satisfied with that?

Is this my dream, or God's plan? Is it both? Is it doable?

The biggest question of them all is: is it possible to have it all? Or do I have to give something up?


As a child, and then a teenager, I had these dreams of getting married after high school, and having a bunch of kids, and homeschooling them, and also having my dream job. Now I know, or at least think I know, what my dream job is, but marriage and children are nowhere in sight. I still want those things, but now I'm left wondering if they will ever happen, and should they happen. Growing up can be great, but it can also be complicated. Right now, for me, it's complicated.

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Friendships

-
Shout out to my best friend (a.k.a. the only person who reads this blog) for making really good and festive hot chocolate! It was lovely, and really yummy. Also, she invited me over to her house for hot chocolate, and it was a really great time. We haven't really hung out with just the intention to catch up and just be, for a long time. Also, she's just the best friend I could ask for. We've had our rough patches, but they never last more than a few months at the longest. We always get back to our friendship, almost like nothing ever happened, but we're better and stronger and closer because of it. We understand each other a little better, I think. A while ago I wrote about how I didn't have any friends, boo hoo hoo. Honestly, I was going through a personal rough patch where I didn't really come into contact with many people, and I had just transferred to a new school, and I hadn't made any new friends. Looking back, I realize that yes, I would like to h...
Read more

Unbalanced

-
I've been thinking through a lot of things lately, one of which pertains to one of the major issues in society these days. Whether or not homosexuality is a sin, and how we as Christians should react to it. One of my main thoughts is that it is a sin. It is not how God originally created people to be, and is a result of the fall of humanity in the garden of Eden. One of my other main thoughts is that we are supposed to be the salt and light to this world, and that means we need to love God and love others as we love ourselves. How can we show others how much God loves them if we, Christ's ambassadors on this earth, do not love them? Jesus had dinner with the most hated and shamed people in His day. The tax collectors, who stole from people out of greed, and the prostitutes. These were people who were not allowed in "good society", the upstanding folk of the day didn't so much as talk to them, much less go into their homes and eat food with them. They were sinner...
Read more

Love, & the Power of Prayer

-
Today at church we got to watch a discussion between our church leaders and Admiral Chaplain Barry Black. It was so good to hear his persective and his story. Something he said really stuck with me. "Love your neighbor as yourself" and "people don't realize the power that prayer has".   I just want to touch on these for a minute. I've heard a lot of different perspectives recently, some people are saying we just need to love each other more, while others are saying loving people isn't enough. I would offer this thought: when we truly love other people, all the other things will follow.  When we truly love people, as God does, we will come to respect them, we will come to treat them kindly, we will come to treat them as our equals. Just as we come to to obey God, listen to Him, and follow His will. Love, it's not just caring about someone, it's a willingness to act. It's a desire to help, to take care of, and nurture. It's also the need ...
Read more